Beyond Belief


>>You and I met at Stillwater prison. I wanted to know if you were in the same mindset of what I remember from court, where I wanted to go over and hurt you. But you were not that 16-year-old. You were a grown man. I shared with you about my son.>>And he became human to me. You know, when I met you it was like, OK this guy is real. And then, when it was time to go, you broke down and started shedding tears. And the initial thing to do was just try to hold you up, as best as I can. Just hug you like I would my own mother, you know.>>After you left the room, I began to say, I just hugged the man who murdered my son. And I instantly knew that all that anger, and the animosity, all the stuff that I had in my heart for 12 years for you, was over. That I had totally forgiven you.>>As far as receiving forgiveness from you, sometimes I still don’t know how to take it. Because I haven’t totally forgiven myself yet. It’s something that I’m learning from you. I won’t say that I have learned yet, because it’s still a process that I’m going through.>>I treat you as I would treat my son. And our relationship is beyond belief. We live next door to one another.>>Yeah, so you can see what I’m doing. You know, first hand. We actually bump into each other all the time, leaving in and out of the house. And you know, our conversations, they come from, “Boy, how come you ain’t called over here to check on me in a couple of days.” [laughter] “You ain’t even asked me if I need my garbage to go out.” [laughter] I find those things funny because it’s a relationship with a mother for real.>>Well, my natural son is no longer here. I didn’t see him graduate. Now you’re going to college. I’ll have the opportunity to see you graduate. I didn’t see him get married. Hopefully one day, I’ll be able to experience that with you.>>Just to hear you say those things, and to be in my life in the manner in which you are, is my motivation. It motivates me to make sure that I stay on the right path. You still believe in me. And the fact that you can do it, despite how much pain I caused you, is amazing.>>I know it’s not an easy thing. You know, to be able to share our story together. So I admire that you can do this.>>I love you, lady.>>I love you too, son.


2 Responses

  1. Oh dear me

    August 26, 2019 10:50 pm

    Id have to know more about the circomstances of the murder to appreciate this situation . . . Or not.


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